my heart feels like its burning and ready to explode. Why did we even argue?

shine

Firstly, i lost money instead of winning money. damn fortune telling animals.

Secondly, UT!!! and i'm not studying!!! how smart am i man....

Lastly, chionging driving alr!!! hahas!!

WTF

FML!!! damn hair dye... now its black...

life.

3 months, it had been 3 months since i blogged and my life still goes on as per normal. During this 3 months my life is like a statistic graph, the high and low differentiation is too great and too obvious.

Take my studies for an example, when i am not performing well, i get a B grade,but when i am putting in that little effort, i get an A grade. Now the problem is "what is my motivation?" I need motivation and i need it urgently!! hahas,it sounds kinda wrong though.

Trying to forget someone you love, is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

blah blah blah

So from my previous post, i was speaking about the repeating dreams that i had for a few weeks. Up till now , it has not stop at all!! Freak!! this time it is getting more and more worst!! In what way worst, i can't tell but its definitely not about me getting gay or going below my normal standards.

Anyway school is going to start soon. :D :D W56E. studying begins again for me :D:D

Again

I'm finally back.. And all i wanted to report is this dream, I want to know whether is it a sign of fate or just coincidence. Once again it was about me and her and its the same scene all over again. (don't worry, its not sex or anything about it :)

Right now all I want to know is "Could she be having the same dream as me?"
It happened to me 2 times already and i am kind of reluctant of there is a 3rd time.

nightmare

Have you ever had a nightmare that was so real that you can feel it? I had mine and i could not get out of it.. Erm.. lets say... i was back studying again in secondary school and in that nightmare, i constantly told myself that "i was dreaming" I keep on walking around the school like a wondering ghost and could still talk to the other classmates.. How freaky was that...

Argh~~~ i just wish it don't happen again.. Peace.

Which is better? Giving attention or seeking attention?
Which will be the correct thing to do? stand out or blend in with others?
Which one will you like ?

......

once again.. i regreted what i did in the past.
Its what caused me to be in the position of where i am right now...

annoyed!!

after today's training, i seriously wished i got a iron thumb.. after going for training consistently, i got a minor blister on my thumb, FML. I just dun get it, how did i ever get a blister on my fucking thumb?!?!

soon the class chalet and i will be damn high and drunk at it !! lol

bored..

bored bored bored bored bored.. holidays and i'm still bored.. i really wanted to enjoy the holidays but i'm still bored even after doing nonsense...

just maybe i'll be picking up gyming again.... high chance eh...
oh well, my life is quite a hazard now. exams over and now waiting for my results.

for my family side, its forever a hazard.:D



i dream of you again.. what should i do? i just wonder whether is it a good sign or a bad sign?

wow~~~

today is CNY eve.. tommrrow is valentine day and the start of CNY..

How fuck up is that? well it seems that my exam is finally over.. i wonder whether i will be able to pass all my modules..

So for my holiday plan.. line-up would be
1. bowling training every tuesday , thursday and saturday.
2. gonna have 3 chalet bbq!!! but all at the same place ( downtown east) ~.~
3. i not too sure .. lol but sure will have somehting to do :)

yesterday today and tommrrow

yesterday was the last day of school and i had the weirdest dream and tommrrow is my study day... WTH ...


enjoyed the last day of W14H. Its like last semester all over again, the joy happened and gone all over again.

Today i had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that i walked into a bakery and took one of each type of food on my tray and ate finish all after that. Funny dream for an afternoon nap eh..

2 mre days till UT3 .. god please help me ..as i still suck as some of the topics in chemistry..


I will update my music library soon!!!

i see colours of a negative rainbow??? WTH

i had been having some problem in my sleep.
i was fighting in my dreams for weeks. i could even wake up in the middle of the night with the position to kick (still lying on the bed) imagine that.
I wonder is that my adrenaline kicking in? or is that stress kicking in?

i need help...

i nearly died yesterday. volmiting and shit all morning.. damn gastric flu.. i really wish i'll be alright by tommrrow. pray pray pray hard for myself now..

14 down and 2 more to go

WTF !!!! I hate goodbyes to my family!!!.. no matter who you guys are.. you all are still family!!!!

kill the bad and gain the good and achieve the best.

had quite a f-up day intially but my mood began to change slowly as i do the worksheet. I feel that the more i do , the more i really understand physics !!!!(but in the end i dun think i did well)

Well the presentation went well and better in the end :p, how i wished that my last 12 weeks of physics could be this nice.

Anyway bowling training was better!!! the new ball i gotten was working perfectly. the games were smooth for me. (Good job finally!!)

And now i am at home, the best part would be that i finally gotten an "A" grade for MCB!!!!!! HELL YEAH!!!!!! 2nd best > cognitive = 2 A in a row!!!!!!!! DOUBLE HELL YEAH!!!!!

Anyway its this late and i'm still high.. i wonder will i be able to sleep??? WTH

Monday= i love PT!!!

yes today is monday!!! And i love PT!!! i dunno why but i just love to run. Impressively I improved!! hahas.. i ran before the PT, 1.5 km I improved from 8.30 to 7.30 mins.... i feel great even though i did not ran well for PT :p..

Did the basic stuffs after PT , Shower > Dinner > Home > RJ.

Right now i am wondering. Just how much effort do i need to produce now? How much longer must i wait? Its just my life, and I have to live with it right?

I must be stronger!! i must be better!!!! but not the King of all..

its offcial!!!

my parents love my life but i hate it.

I dun know what is the correct thing to do anymore, to please my parents or the please myself?

If i were to choose 1 over another, i would always ended up unbalance in my life.
I dun have enough freedom for my own private life, everytime i tried to step over the line, my mum would just swoop down from some hidden angle like an eagle and take that "freedom" away from me(how freaky is that).