did not know a day of absence of school could cause go much

idiot mother
idiot brother...

only my father knows how i feel .......

idiot idiot idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!

dunno the lifestyle of a true leader and yet conplaint so much about his attitude.....
dun have the olevel qualification and yet complaint about my attitude in studying....

both of them are alike... selfish,rude,not supportive and arrgont!!!!!!

just when i tot i made my day by studying in peace... both of them have to corner me and nag at me.... i don't deserve this !!!!!!!! fuck-up day!!!!!

hooked on a feeling!!!!!!!!!!

Ouga Chaka ouga! ....I can't stop this feeling ...Deep inside of me.Girl, you just don't realizeWhat you do to me.When you hold meIn your arms so tight,You let me know,Everythings alright, ahahahI'm hooked on a feeling,I'm high on believing,That your in love with me.Lips as sweet as candy.Their taste stays on my mind.Girl, you keep me thirsty for another cup of wine.I got it bad for you girl,But I don't need a cure,I'll just stay addicted, If I can endureAll the good love, when we're all aloneKeep it up girl, yeah you turn me on.I'mmm, I'mmm Hooked on a feeling.I'm high on believing that your in love with me.All the good love, when we're all aloneKeep it up girl, yeah you turn me on.Ahaha I'm hooked on a feeling,I'm high on believing,That your in love with me.I'm hooked on a feeling,I'm high on believing,That your in love with me.I say I'm hooked on a feeling,And I'm high on believing,That your in love with me.I'm hooked on a feeling.


a song that put a smile on my face.... for me to share to all you guys reading my blog.... i will not be emo anymore!!!!!!!!!!! (for now)!!!!!!! very long since i lasted posted an entry right? busy and was very emo...now i'm not anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

confusion knocked my head and caused major breakdown in my brain!!!

prelims was finally over today!!!! woot!!!! hahas.. knowing that i have done badly even without getting back the results... hahas .. i have start to realise how dumb i was to actually prepare so hard just to fail.... sad rite?.... hahas.. maths p2 was easy to understand but hard to do... than yesterday was science practical!!! it was worst!!! especially bio.... sian.....

got my new timetable today and was not quite happy with the arrangements... early dismiss just for own studying session in the afternoon.. haix... than libray opened till 6!!! it useless... it will still be very very!!!! crowded with those noisey lower sec students!!! argh!!!

starting a new day tommrrow and will be serious from tommrrow's lesson onwards!!!

another 2 days without the meaning of life

well yesterday i went to the gym... i promised myself to pump up my body for the very last time before the o'levels.... i decided to chiong this whole week!!!! yesterday i went to the gym and had a 10 mins non-stop jog on the machine... hahahs i was non-stop but some guy just came beside me and too had a jogged... but the funny thing was that he came up later and got down the machine earlier than me !!! he was trying to show off his arm muscles as he worn a singlet!!! damn dumb rite?hahahas!!!

after the 10mins jogged... i had gone straight to the pull-up assist machine and done 50 normal pull-ups and 50 push-ups !!! woot!!! than i gone to the sit-up bench and done my 30 sit-ups with a 5 kg load!!! hahahs may not sound a bit crazy to some of you but it was quite fun.....

than i had a quick shower and headed to my favourite chicken chop store!!!! hahahas(somewhere near big book store) tokyo western!!!! hahahs thats the stores' name... yummy ...

well then today i had my sci mock pratical and it was fuking funny!!!! hahahs

jin seng was beside me during the whole practical and we weere actually discussing the answer even though it was a mock paper!!! hahahs

my tears of sorrow but not tears of joy........

i might be a fool just by listening to your lie,
i might be a fool just by trusting you,
i might even be an idiot just to see you do that in front of me.
but .
why do you have to make me suffer?
why do you have to make fell more remorseful?
why do you have to make me look like a fool?

why?why?why?why?why?why?

what do i want?
i want the truth... no more lies .. please no more.... i just to know the truth and i will pretend that nth had happened.. i will surely turn my soul away from you.....

if nothing is done , please dun be sorry after the damage is done next week....
don't force me to break my limit that i had been holding up for so long...
you do not want to see my scary side.....
but i swear i will break it if something is not done.....
i will show no mercy even if you are on your knees.....



why do i sound so emotional yet so angry?
ask yourself.....


i know you had never given me hope but why still so cruel in putting on the pressure indirectly?
i know i may sound wrong and very unreasonable but imagine you in my position... what am i talking about is what you should feel at least....



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i just placed my feelings of how i feel in this current post... ( i read through it and i find it emo but i'm feeling better now...)